Friday, March 20, 2009

Should I?

I'm debating something huge right now. Hair color. Right now it looks...blah. Kinda like in between. I haven't dyed it all over for...14 months. See this post I haven't highlighted it for... 11 months. Is it time? This was my first dye ever. My hair was so freakin healthy. So freakin healthy.

This was my next dye over 2 years later. A complete bleach. Im still paying for this one on the ends of my hair. I will NEVER dye my hair again. So healthy, to thin not healthy.

This is my hair now. YUck. Everyone tells me they love this natural look. BLahck. I need something. Should I highlight it? I think I will, its just a matter of time.

OH by the way. Brad had won this Mario Karts like for the trillionth time. I seriously just wanted to win once. Thats all I wanted. Don't worry I'll let you know when I win.

I'll make a big deal out of it when I do win. I'll send out a mass text like my friend Darcey does when anything at all happens. Like her husband makes good cookies. Mass text time.



Are you falling in love with him through my blog? Gosh, by now you should be. Look at that face. We were eating this asian style dinner, and we just got our food with our chops right from the pan in front of us on the table. I spilled sometimes.

Let's break down our relationship so all of you have this idea of how we get along. Brad never listens to me, and this picture is a perfect example. I told him to do a 'stoned' face. He just did his own thing. So now I'm the one who looks like she just watched Skeleton Key. (Just watched that by the way, freaked me out and I think about it every second of everyday, its been a week).

Next part of our relationship you need to understand. Brad dominates me. He didn't really want me in this picture, hence why I am getting smushed on my eye and he is in the center slowly pushing me out.

I really had to fight to be in this photo. Look at his face, he is so mad at me, he just wants a picture of himself. and he is so mad that he smushed my eye basically closed. I feel unloved.


After much bribing, one meal a day bribe, he allowed me to be in the picture. He didnt smushmy eye, and he acted pretty happy about it too. I just told him if he was always pushing me out then he would lose a lot of friends.
So we worked it out, now I dominate and don't listen to him.
JK. He does listen, always has and never dominates me. For those of you who worried.
Oh and should I dye my hair? Highlight it? I'm torn.









Tuesday, March 17, 2009

He deserved this... Valentine.

Whoa. I'm way late. Only a month and three days. So Brad was my Valentine this year. He is pretty hot and awesome. I guess he heard through the grapevine that I write about him frequently, so he checks my blog when he remembers. Or misses me. I think? So I guess I can't really hide my feelings for him anymore. I made him this.
But am scared to give it to him? Should I?
Jk. He has read it, seen it, shown it, whatever guys do. But its actually in my room right now. I need to see it at all times, to make sure it is kept safe. Jk. I dont know why I have it.

Ya that's a book. See I bought the book at the DI for like...2 dollars, then the guy at the counter (he loves me and knows I'm a regular for purchasing books) he gave me a discount...so it really was only about 1 dollar. Probably.

Then I covered it with paper. Then I put ribbon on the back of it. Just because the paper tends to come off if you put paper all the way around it. Then I Mod-Podged over the paper. Mod Podge is fun. Sticky but fun. I then placed a bookmark of brown ribbon in the book. This was because it looked nice. I then punched holes in both sides of the book in order to close it-tie it, with another brown ribbon. I punched those holes with a crop-a-dile big bite.


This is the first page. The 123 means to lift the flaps. Some people struggle with the interactive side of this book. I think it is a book for educated people. Or inquiry-based people. Regardless... the flaps say. 1. our 2. Love 3. Story. Get it? Our love story... so I found those words in the actual book then cut down to them with an exacto knife..but then there were holes in all my pages that I couldnt cover up, so I just ripped out all those hole pages, and salvaged the our, love, and story words and posted them under this page. Whew...glad I got that out in less than a million words. The picture of us, is actually a Costco sticker that I ordered, you may see more of them. Yep, you will. I may stick them all over my face. Or yours. Probably yours. I don't want them on my face. Why would I put a sticker of my face on my face? I wouldn't. But I would on yours. Totally would. K moving on.

Oh did I mention that I sewed, hand sewed the word 'love' right there on the right.


Here lies the next page. If you can follow it....it Says..."me & you Began At BYU 41st Ward'
Then the little pocket holds the byu 41st ward and it pulls out. On the pocket it says Love at first sight. There is a costco sticker on the left hand side. Don't ask the meaning of the camera. i liked it. And I made it pop out. And i like how I ripped out the pages and used them as borders sometimes. I also like the mod-podged pocket I made. I like it.
This now is the next page. A few things to notice....
I made another pocket. The pocket holds the program from that Sunday, that we met. There is also the beginning of our story. I won't put that on here. Its only 15 single space pages on Microsoft Word. 11 point font. Totally normal.

Here is another page. Kinda complicated. I inculed a center pop out envelope. Which I made...I like making envelopes, then I place a grommet? ya whatever in the center of the flap and put a ribbon through the hole and put something that is 3-d in order to hold the ribbon which ties around. This is probably boring you. I know this isn't a how to scrap a book for Brad blog. If it was, I would probably rich by teaching people how to make envelopes and place stickers of our faces all over. Yep I would be rich. Anyway, sometimes I don't make sense.

So the envelope holds part of the story. That I wrote. About our love.
And this is the next page, you can kinda see the envelope on the left. The one in the previous picture, remember? So this is a costco sticker on a sticky thing that has texture and is three-d, and three ribbons, which match the paper,and I love. I like the colors. I like the color combo. Who wouldn't, please everyone who is normal would.
Now please let me tell you...I did not include all of the pages. I figured that would bore you to absolute death. So I just included some of my favorites. And some that aren't (that word has a squiggle under it? why? I totally spelled it right. Aren't, .. weird.) my favorites, but might be your favorites.
This one is kinda awesome. In the envelope I have here, which I made... is a picture of Brad and I...resembling the picture to the left here. Except we are much hotter. And way more serious.
This is one of my favorites. We have here a hanging envelope which includes a card, three things I love about Brad. Then the story is all over here. Then the pop up heart that comes up when you open the book. Then the hanging card that is stamped with my love, and it says, "Brad you are a hunk" -Brittany. Super romantic, I know. I guess you should know how I printed my story. I cut the paper to what size I needed it to be, chose the font color and size and type, then printed it. Sometimes it went in crooked, sometimes it jammed. Sometimes I swore. In my head, not out loud, that would be pointless and fruitless because nobody would hear me. And I would just feel like an idiot swearing to myself because the paper jammed. But really..it was a task. And sometimes, when I felt like I had only plowed through 3 single space pages on Microsoft Word and I had already spent a million trillion gazillion hours on it, I made the font reallllyyyyy teeny, so I could get more on there. And...feel like it was going fast. When . . it really wasn't at all.
Oh ya, I left space for him to write his story too.

A lot of people like this page. Me too. I cut out a heart from the book pages and pasted it on paper, then I sharpied (is that an action verb? is now.) the whole page on the next page, and left the word 'us' because it was there, I was trying to just finish this lovely thing. And...here we have it. An awesomely simple page. Those are brads at the top of the story. Ironic, I put brads in your book Brad. Dumb? Probably. But oh well.
This page here on the right is my favorite. Maybe, I have lots of favorites. I bought the die cut pop out whatever they are a while ago and when creativity fails you, just use the words 'love' and the name of your love, in my case, 'Brad'. So its my favorite because I love sewing paper by hand. I ripped the page in half, but kept it intact. Then sewed a new piece of paper on it. So its a bit fragile. Costco sticker on your left.

This was mostly everyone's favorite page. Not sure why. But it was. I think the hinges. This is the story of our first hug. Ask Brad about it. He really didn't hug me very well at all. I actually told myself I couldn't date him anymore as he walked out my front door, because his hug was so....unlike me. I prefer to be hugged like the person likes me, or why waste the motions of a hug? To burn calories? No, awkward. So I would have rather him not even have hugged me if he is going to hug like that. But....then I would not have been able to write about it. So...thanks for being so great at hugging that first time Brad! (if you don't know that that is sarcastic, this little note in parentheses is telling you that it is sarcastic.)So it opens. and it has hinges. Hinges on paper. Thank you big bite.
Oh and don't my fingers look great in this photo. All wrinkled and manly. My nails may have been bitten in the past 20 hours. Maybe. Oh, so the paper folds down again, and more story is visible.
This is our 'first kiss page' See the words 'kiss me' on the top left. Then brad on the bottom right. So this font is teeny tiny, cuz I wrote a lot about our first kiss. I asked my friend Kaitlin to give me the picture of us from her party, which we were at before we kissed. I had only known him like six days. Gross? Nope, awesome. This is a pocket that pulls out lots of stuff, a card for him to write his story on, a picture of us, a card that says, 'i knew I would love you forever when....' and ya...so we kissed. And we still do sometimes.
I did this page ultra fast. It was after a five hour session of working on the book sitting indian style and I was ready to eat. Sometimes when working on this book, I forgot to eat, and got high off of glue. Normal. Totally normal. This flap that says, 'it must be love' lifts up and the story is underneath. Sometimes I did things the long way, and I was like, wow that took forever and shouldnt have. That was this page.
Here is another speed job, but sometimes simple is awesome.
I like this page. Hence why I put i here. It has a pocket that I made and Mod-Podged with a bird sticker on it, and a love stamp up top and a love hanging card, and story. Lots of story. Also, this is a list in which I wrote a day or two after meeting him, its cute, you should read it.
Now this wasn't part of the story. This was my own words, which I wrote that day in my journal then ripped them out. It was a letter to Brad, and I tear up when I read it out loud to people. Its romantic. Trust me.



This is a fun filled page of wonderfulness. This is about the first time he said, I love you. Ya he tells me that sometimes. There is a picture of us skiing that day, New Years day, he was snowboarding. And then a flap that contains lots of fun stuff. He said she said card. Then Remember when you said....And I wrote, 'you loved me?' I love metal stuff. The bottom right. Metal. It says, 'friends with benefits' Jk, it says best friends. Or, 'best lovers' Jk, it says best friends. Im done just kidding. Nope, probably not.


So here is when I ended it. Not our relationship, duh, but the book. I gave up on Scrap and just started throwin it all together. STuck a sticker on the left and another sticker that said love under that. then glued a picture to a paper then glued that paper to another paper to the book. Thats all. So here it says....This is the end..but really it is the beginning....... Then the next page says, 'to our love story. So if you put it together it will say, This is the end, but really it is the beginning to our love story.
Oh here we go. Costco sticker attack. Our love story. So ya read the first page.
Here is my about the author page. Oh did I forget to tell you? I think I did. The night before Valentines....wow that sounds like the night before Christmas, well its not, but its similar, and better. The night before, (NB) brad wouldn't leave, and I had SOOOO much to do on his book. I never really have 'wanted' him to leave before. Until this night. I had like anxiety, am I going to finish it in time. He asked me when he could see me the next day. I was like..uh..........how about six? HA! Ya right, he knew I wasn't doing anything, because I'm a abad liar, but I had to lie more and more and say I had homework. Who has homework on VDAY, nobody. Unless you are lame VDAY haters. I hate VDAYs without a boyfriend. I love VDAYS with a Brad Boyfriend. Gosh can I write one blog post without talking about him? Probably not. So he left who knows what time, for the sake of the BYU honor code, and me always keeping it we will say midnight. He left at midnight. Then I worked on this book for NINE hours straight. I thought I would need caffeine. But I didnt, I just ate candy all night and focused. No music either, I dont know why. I should have listened to music. Then I went down stairs and talked to Landon in the morning, ate something and I was loopy. Then...I went to sleep, then I did about two more hours of finishing touches. 100 hours later, the book was finished. I think it was about 84 hours, but 100 sounds better. Way better. I remember when I hit forty hours on it. That was when I wasn't even close to done. I felt kinda overwhelmed, it was only a few days till VDAy. Yikes. I am always with him, when am I gonna finish this, work, sleep, and go to school and take tests and do well and not fail, and buy pencils at the testing center? That cost thirty cents but they put it on your student account so you have to pay it off with a credit card. Can I not find 30 pennies on the floor before I buy it? No. I cant. Was that a tangent, yes it was. Memory of the loopiness is coming back to me and I am feeling it again. So I stayed up a long time. All night to finish it. Ya I probably slept on our Vday date.
It's thick, because of all the three d awesomeness.
see it? just in case you don't, I posted a different view of it.
Thats my bedspread in the background with my down comforter, pretty huh? I dont make my bed.
Here Brad, Have this book.


Who wouldn't want to make this face something wonderful, like a book. I would, so I did, and disregard that he is on his cell phone and not really into the whole, hey I'm gonna take a picture of you thingy. Headband=hot.

So if you feel like you want to know more about this book, just tell me I would love to sit down with you and go over the process of gluing, tearing, re-gluing and finishing it.

He liked it, I hope you do too.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Do you guys remember?

So last year about this time..I actually messed up my eye. Or more like this girl on the opposing city league team messed up my eye.

This is what I wrote on April 27th, 2008 on this here blog.

"SO I was playing basketball and this girl decided elbowing me would be a good idea. Then my vessel in my eye decided it would be a even better idea to burst six days after I got elbowed. So, this little hematoma was formed...and it def. was a self evaluating moment. I had to make sure I had the confidence just to go out in public."

Now I think I was scared to write what was really going on. I mean if your eye looked like this...
People would question if you were normal.

I totally walked around campus and people would give me a few...oh my gosh looks, but mostly i got the quick glance from others, then the quick look away, then the quick glance back, then they would begin to speed walk away from me. Ya, I almost cried one day. Absolutely no positive attention. I mean my eye was swollen shut. I didnt even put make up on it for a week. But it slowly began to improve.

I woke up one morning and tried to convince Brooke and Tosha that it was getting better. They told me it wasn't.




But I tried to believe it was. Then probably a week later it looked better..Right?



Okay so I went through a few weeks of complete junk. People looking at me...and As I thought about city league bball starting again. I realized this is what happened last time I played.
Two weeks after it exploded. Three weeks after I got hit.

A month or more after the vein burst in class(six days after I got hit) while I was rubbing my eye.


Ya, I'll still play. And when that girl jumps on me and decides to put her elbow in my eye. I'll think twice about touching my eye six days later. :)

Friday, March 6, 2009

Babies. Babies.

My sister in law has a baby. Her name is Sophia. My little sister Faith calls her soapy.


See Amanda's blog for pictures of soapy. CLICK.


So we had a shower, after she was born...to celebrate her birth.


Amanda got this pink blanket. Remi is coveting it in the background. THat is Sally's leg.


Yellow. Jaundis. We both just got out of the hospital. Not funny? Okay, it was the camera setting. Truth is..we dont have jaundis.




Shower Junkies.




Brittany. And Sophie. Um...Not me. Does that look like me? Okay, obviously it is not me. But yet, Amanda's sister Brittany.




Echo, and Mykah. Cousins.







Aunt Shelley and Baby Sophie. (Notice the head wrinkles on Sophie.)


Whoa! How did this get in there..he wasn't at the shower.


Actually...he did make an appearance. Um...if potentially we somehow had a child together...that child would be the cutest ever..with dimples. Brad..now come on...I am not saying you have a baby face..Nor am I saying you have to marry me..I'm just saying..I'm saying you are strikingly HandSome. With...dimples. I just have these cheeks that bunch up at the corners of my mouth. WE could do without those.


Let me show you him again at a zoomed out view.
After his roommates made him change his shirt for the date...because he couldn't wear the same sweaty shirt that he wore to the BYU UTAH game. I didn't care. I don't shower for like 4 days.

I have a feeling.
I like him.
I like Brad Clark.

A Lot.
Back to reality. Day dreaming there for a second. As always when we get together we take a picture of all the sisters.
Left to right.
Brooke, Echo, Tosha, ME, Sal, Summer, and Faith.
One detail. Sister Hannah she lives in Maryland. That's why she isn't in this picture. But that doesn't mean she still isn't our sister.
I gave up on being good looking at this shower and changed into bball shorts and an oversized t-shirt. Which is kinda an unattractive secret about me.... I like big t-shirts. A lot. Almost as much as I like Brad. Whatever not even close.
I tried to make this post more user friendly. Not so long-winded. But I will have you know. Yesterday when I was trying to read my book in the lib. I heard a girl and her boyfriend...(I think it was her bf...she said I love you at the end. But she didnt really talk as though she loved him...)
Her and her bf were talking on the phone in the hallway, right outside the 'quiet zone' I looked at her probably 3 times. The 'oh hi, I noticed you so I looked over here look'. She kept on arguing with him about why she walked out on the group of friends while he was there. It wasn't because she didn't want to spend time with him. It was because she had to get out of that environment.
I then gave her the 'okay, here I am looking at you again after reading my book and not being able to focus on Hannah and the Holocaust. And okay, there are your eyes meeting mine, okay now do you know that you are driving me crazy?'
Then I continued to hear about how she didn't walk out because she didn't want to be with him, but he was a little rude that night.
I looked over at her again with the 'please stop talking on your cell phone right now' look.
Then I heard about how he never interprets her right. He always thinks she is being rude.
I decided not to look over at her. I decided to slide down in my sofa chair and throw down my arms to my sides. With my book in one hand. Way exaggerated. Like I was about to heave my entire body towards her and start punching her in the face.
That was probably too much information.
She kept talking. From 5:07pm to 5:58pm I heard about how she walked outside, and all the deeper meaning in her walking outside.
I then had read approximately 7 pages in 51 minutes. And flipped through, threw? whatever. Flipped through seven other books. Including a baby names book.
Hulga? No? Ya, I was desperate for something that grasped my attention.
After I read the meaning of 34 names, I decided I needed to move. I gathered up my things...as I was walking out. She came walking towards me and grabbed my bag and hit me upside the head with it.
That was a lie.
She really just said goodbye to her bf. And said, 'love you' at the end. When really I know she hated him.
Thank you for letting me release the anger that welled up inside of me from 5pm to 9 am today.
Not that long.
Now I just got carried away up there.

I apologize.
Bye.