Too Much

Sometimes life gives me too much at once. Or do I plan it all at once? Last Friday we had our ultrasound.
Such an amazing experience. It became more real. Then we had Brad's graduation. Then I gave him a present I have been working on for months. Then we had his party/bbq/gender reveal party. Then we ran a 5k the next day. Did I plan too much?

I think it was a little much for me, too many huge life experiences. But I loved every minute of it.  I had 1 small breakdown at his graduation. It all was because the surprise present wasn't working out.  But it all worked out PERFECTLY, and thank you Landon and everyone who made it possible. Now I have been reasonably mellow during this pregnancy, now I wonder if that is because I was in a sick coma the first 16 weeks, or because my mood has just been mellow.

So much happened in that one day. Its like 7 blog posts all in one. So I decided to capture a few highlights, and not write a book about it, because I really could.

Our ultra sound was at 8 AM. We had Faith with us, and afterwards she said, "How come we didn't get the baby out?" She really thought we were going to look at the baby, and that meant take the baby home. We didn't find out what the baby was, but we did find out the baby has long legs :)

Here we are walking away from the hospital. I feel and look water logged. :) Or food logged, because I have finally started eating some meals :)

Yay Bradley. We both have made it.

BOY!!!

Faith was so sad it was a boy. She said to me before, "If its a boy I won't come to your house to play anymore. Boys don't play with girls." Then she burst into tears when she saw it was a boy.

I was surprised, I was sure it was a girl. I am so happy its a boy. I can't even tell you how much I want a mini freckled Brad.

 19 Weeks

20 Weeks

I feel like I just popped right out this 20th week :)

And this whole experience has been phenomenal. He actually just punched my stomach and Brad and I saw my stomach move up, just wait, you think its corny and silly for me to be amazed by this, but if you have a baby move inside you, you will relate to me.

And..I bought this today

BABY BOOK

Oh yes, I got Brad this and so many people chipped in to support me in this purchase (THANK YOU). He was surprised for once in his life. He was positive he saw little T******** in the ultra sound, so he wasn't even really surprised by it being a boy. But this, this got him. But, this video is hard to tell what it is, GRAND PIANO KEYBOARD! My favorite part about it, is he records a piano, or violin part to a song he loves, then he plays back the recording, as he plays the electric guitar to it, he has just been hiding all his talents :)

Oh Brad, I love you. And I love that you spend SO much time playing this now.

Watch out!

So, its my spring break. I figure I have ZERO excuses to not post on my blog. Because guess what!?!!??!?!

I haven't puked for a whole week!! And I feel great, besides tired and want to take a nap at every minute, and sometimes I just have to sit down, even at the grocery store.

But, I did it. I finally feel like I have a little bump, so we took some pictures.
I know everyone takes pictures once a week, but I seriously didn't feel like I had anything until week 17. So here ya go.

Here is week 17. Huge I know. I feel huge. But black hides everything right?

Week 18, Brad said, "You know that black is hiding your stomach." Then he said,"lift up your shirt Brit" Which is of course a daily sentence for him. He has this dream that I will just ...never mind, not blog material.

So there you go, and you may think, wow she looks great for being 18 weeks pregnant, but you havent seen the front view, wide. WIDE. I am just going wide. It's bad. I'm trying not to become a total hefty cow, by working out regularly, but I still have gained 12 pounds, and I guess that's normal (doc said today) but, gosh I feel like its ALL in my chest. I can't control them. I need a good strong hefty bra, and if you know where to get one (VS is just out of the question, I've already maxed out my VS bra, not strong enough) let me know!

Do you see that line on my stomach??? That is where my skirt would zip up, so I lost about 8 inches of length, and it barely hit my knee at that point, but I at least got it on! With a line of bruise to show for it!

Well I felt like I wasn't myself for 15 weeks, now I feel golden, besides the sleepiness and pass out all the time feeling. So we have just been busy bees since I started feeling better. We go to the park almost everyday and throw the baseball to each other.

This is actually Brad and Tiera, Landon and T have been coming with us a lot lately. 

We also started a new thing of sand vball. 

Way too fun.

Landon spazed and hit the ball in the tree, we worked up some cheerleading stance to have T get it out of the tree with a baseball bat.

Brad is in heaven pitching to everyone.

I made PF Changs lettuce wraps for Easter. I was a little stressed because Brad wouldn't hurry and go home from baseball so I could finish making them, but it all worked out okay and I ate 7.

We had a little easter basket search, I got to hide the baskets, and I got Brad this book which he had been wanting. You can see the wideness :)

We had no idea that branch was in that position until after the picture because it was PITCH dark outside.

Yay!!! Hunt for your basket!

Brad kept begging me for clues, I hit his completely inside a huge bush.

He found it!!!

Yay!!!! Chels and Alex found it!

 We also hit up the Thanksgiving point Dino Museum easter weekend.

I try really hard to not look pregnant, but it still happens.

This dino was the supersaurous. They couldn't think of another name for this dino that doesn't even fit in my pic.

How does his swallowing work for him?

Update on life:
I had two doc appointments today, derm to get rid of my ever expanding blood vessels on my face, he burned them away. It was a needle with heat and it felt like a shock.
Then the OBGYN where they took some tests, we checked for the baby's little heart and everything was great. He couldn't find it at first, and I panicked....thinking,  Oh goodness that vball dive I did, totally smashed the babe, then he found it and I laughed OUT LOUD! He said, "Are you happy about that?"
I said, "Yes I was scared!!" He laughed.

Then we scheduled my ultra sound for April 20th, in which we won't find out what we are having, but will give the sex to a girl (that sounds way bad) let me start over.
We will text her the gender, and she will make a cake with the color of the frosting in the middle pink or blue of what I am having. Then at Brad's grad party we will cut the cake!!

Brad graduates! YAY!
We are still waiting to finalize our decision but we pray the right thing will happen.
And tomorrow, to take a break Brad and I are spending a night in a hotel in SLC, gonna hit up the new city center and the temple. And of course Bruges Waffles and Frites :)

I'm excited for this day tomorrow...Happy spring break. And let me know if you want a grad announcement for Brad ;)

I just have to say...

I just have to throw it out there.  I don't know what I want. I don't know if I want a boy or girl. I just don't know. I don't want to find out either, I like it mysterious. But then sometimes I wanna know so bad it hurts..... and it becomes urgent. 

When I look at these...

I really want a boy. So bad it hurts...again.

This makes me just have this thing for Brad, his hair, his Asian style eyes, his freckles, and his smile I can't get over him. I can't. I'm smitten, so I would love to have a mini Brad. Love it.

This picture just shows how he is always teasy. Teasing me and driving me crazy, sarcasm keeps us alive, and this makes me want a mini Brad again.

And this is just hilarious, look at his shorts, I wish I could get a close up on that print, is it crabs??? and I love how Brad is the farthest thing from a farmer, and he married a Farmer's daughter, its ironic. Irony and adorable.

Side note, I have to pee every 10 minutes!!! It gets old.

But then a girl, with dimples, freckles, and this...

combined.

Its a hard choice. 

So hard. But good thing I don't have to choose. It's already chosen. Phewph...

Ps, I have a belly, I'm gonna make Brad take a picture...finally I have something to prove this pregnant thing. I keep putting off the picture, always thinking I look terrible, well it isn't going to get better if I always look terrible!!!!!!

I know you all wanna see this again, cuz I do, I just wanna cuddle it, its so darn cute.

Gosh I love Brad! 

Getting Wide

Well, we went to Standrod. It was quite the little adventure. We left around five because I had a church bball tournament in the morning which we played 2 games back to back, and won them both!! So now we play in this tri stake championship game on Wednesday. I am awfully excited. My friend Julie recruited me to play, its not my ward, but another ward, which is perfectly legal because my ward doesn't have church bball and you get your bishop to sign a paper. It's fun and great and BY far the best happiest team I have been on in a long time! No offense Championship Intramural team, but you cannot replace these girls they are old (sorry) and not in great shape, except a few, and they work their butts off to win.

So then Brad and I went for sushi. I know...sushi when you are pregnant!!! Ooooos and ahhhs, judge me if you will. We hadn't been there before and it is called Wild Ginger and I loved it! And I didn't puke it ;)
Then Brad wanted to play bball so, alas we waited a few more hours. It began to be raining and stormy but we didn't think anything of it, I had been trying to call my mom ALL day and I was starting to get MAD! NO one was answering.

We went to my aunts to pick up my 3 cousins who were going to ride with us in our Honda Accord, which seats 5, but then 2 more cousins wanted to come so we switched our gear to the mini van. And, the radio didn't work because their baby put pennies in it, which caused a short in the tail light, who knew?

We arrive home and the power has been out all day, and there is snow. Of course, snow in March, winter finally came. My little brother Ian greeted us with a microscope that had a light on it. Some had head lamps. Toilets had 3 or 4 goings already in them because they wouldn't flush with no power. We sat around and talked in the dark next to the raging fire, so rustic. Still everytime I walked into a room I tried to flip the light. Habit. We went to sleep, preparing for the power to go on sometime in the night, and instead woke up to no power Sunday morning. Also, I woke up to 6-8 inches of snow and it was still snowing! Oh dear. Church started at ten but my mom couldn't get ahold of the bishop, who lives 30 or so miles away on dirt roads. Cell phone service is bad out there and actually is a new thing. Brad and I don't get any service at all with our phones.

So we didn't know if Shad's farewell was going to be canceled, when 40 or so people had traveled to see it. No power, probably no church. I think around 10:30 we were planning how to have a little farewell at our house (church is 30 miles away on dirt roads) I live in a dirt road village, and then all the sudden the power kicked on. Toilets can finally be flushed! Good thing my parents have 8 bathrooms or we would have been in trouble. Mom got a hold of the bishop and church was back on! Since Dad, Echo, and Shad were the 3 speakers and the brothers and brothers in law were the musical number, we needed to show up. We packed up the caravan and after 6 cars headed out, we took the treacherous trip to Almo, Idaho which is 30 miles away from our house in Standrod, Utah. You can google map these places, we are dots in the swarms of mountains. We arrived a little late, but at least we arrived. We took up the front 3 rows and that was just immediate family.

Echo spoke first and before she told a story about Phyllis, a lady in the ward, she said, since she was here when the relief society was first established I have some stories from her. Then Sally, in the audience said really loud, "What?" Then Echo gasped and covered her face and the sacrament meeting roared with laughter. Then Echo said, "Sorry Phyllis."

It was epic. Then my dad spoke and he just did a fantastic job after Ammon (autistic brother) ripped up his talk, and shattered a light bulb over it the morning of. Then it was Shad, whom Echo had wrote his talk, and I had reviewed and added details. Shad went well, we wanted him to expound on his testimony at one part and we wrote: Bear Testimony of Church and Priesthood. And he said, "I would like to bear my testimony of the church and priesthood." So that didn't quite go as planned, but I guess we should have written it better. :) Don't worry he will have the gusto to write his homecoming talk :)

I apologize if you lost me up in the story somewhere, bear with me, its almost to the good part where I post the pictures. We then helped set up the dinner of frozen pizzas from Costco, Harmons, and wherever else the family brought them from, then we ate, then I nearly passed out from exhaustion. There is something about being heavy with child, it makes you tired. Very tired. But good news minute (this is relief society) I have been feeling loads better, puking has subsided to about once every three days, and I usually can eat meals. Back to story. I was so tired, I couldn't even form sentences, but nobody seemed to notice because of all the hussle bussle. Also, I thought I was hiding my large waist line with this dress, but it is evidence of ME, getting wide.

This is my family (siblings) in order from oldest to youngest. It's crazy I know, as I look at it, I think of us as crazies or something. Brooke, Tosha, Hannah, Tanner, Summer, Landon, Brittany, Sally, Shad, Echo, Ethan, Chandler, Ammon, Ian, Lad, Faith. Somehow I got hit with the short stick, or forgot my heels. But HEY I am 5'7'' everyone else is just taller than that.

Guhhh that's me 15 weeks wide! Brad says I look stunning, really honey?? I thought the stripes would hide the wide, but its still evident. Summer is also pregnant, she is 4 weeks ahead of me! Tosha just had a baby, and hopefully Sally and Echo stay clear of babies for awhile, Hannah already has 4 so she won't be popping anytime soon!

I am just so happy that I can start feeling better so that I can think about how great it is going to be to have a baby! A DNA combination of Brad and I, its going to be great.

The Pregnant News

I apologize for my uncreative, surprisingly annoying way of telling my blog followers I am pregnant. I know, it was lame, and I should be punished for it. Trust me I have been punished. I have decided to make a list of things to know for people thinking about getting pregnant. Take this seriously.

1. When you eat, if you can eat, you will puke.
2. After you puke, you will rinse your mouth then try to drink some water, prepare to puke the water.
3. Your teeth will be chalky from stomach acid.
4. Your throat will be sore from chunks getting stuck.
5. You will try the advice of Ginger Ale, Saltines, but those don't make you feel better, you still puke.
6. You can only take Tylenol, so if you have multi-cold, prepare to just be miserable.
7. You are going to feel bloated.
8. All the foods you once ate, you won't eat.
9. A food will sound good, you will go out of your way to order it, or drive far to get it, then to find out...it looks disgusting after all.
10. Everything stinks, therefore can trigger throw up.
11. Your husband may become the smelliest human on earth all the sudden.
12. You really become good at finding out what stretchy clothes you have, and comboing them together.
13. Crying has to be a must, because after you puke your guts out all day, crying is all you know how to do.
14. It really is the best thing in the world to hear your husband say, "Goodnight Baby."

Now that you are well versed in what the first 12 weeks will be like....you are only 1/32423542 prepared to be pregnant.

Sally makes me mad, she keeps saying, oh it has to be so much better than cramps.
I'll shove that down your throat Sally when you are pregnant. I would take back cramps in a heart beat.

Oh and all you women who say, "Oh I wasn't sick one day of my pregnancy." I hate you. Really I hate you. And you have no excuse for not having 3210948092384 children. Unless of course you are unable to afford, handle or numerous other reasons.

On the flip side, it has brought Brad and I closer together. We are realizing the bigger picture, what really matters. We don't care what people think. We are so happy, except for when he eats fatty foods, and pickles, I can really smell those on him for days, and I have a hard time being around him without gagging. But other than that we are happy.

I'm at 13 weeks now, and I was supposed to have a 12 week appointment but I have one in a week, and I will ask for the Zofran if I am still on this throw up every meal routine. Hopefully I am closing towards the end though...I've said that for 3 weeks now.....

If you as a previously pregnant person have any other random crazy advice of how to avoid the pukes let me know.

Don't even ask Brad and I our baby names, chances are, we won't tell you, because we don't know.
I have typed up my week to week thoughts. Those will be soon to come.

My due date is Sept 15, 4 weeks after my sister Summer, my sister Tosha just had a baby, so there will be 3 babies in one year. That has to be something for my mom.
Yay for being pregnant!

News

yep, I'm pregnant!

Celebs

I just discovered that the guitarist in the band Maroon 5, James Valentine has a sister. That is married to Brad's cousin. Wow. I feel so close to fame right now.

Brooke had a fun party for her birthday at our house. Our house is a little basement and nobody should have to live with cellar windows for too long, it gets depressing. But we are the middle man for family for parties, so every party is at our house...which I don't mind because in a few months family will be many many hours away. Tears.

Julie decorated the cake with oversized M & Ms. If you are wondering if we made fun of her, we did.

She turned 32!!

We let go of a very pretty baby.

Made a profit of 100 dollars and kept it a year, so we felt it was a good investment, but since Brad got this Fender Jaguar, we had to say, lets not get out of control with our guitars.

I love Brad, and so any new purchase, I am understanding and loving. Its a good hobby, a talent I respect and love. Also, such a life long thing. Well the Grammy's are playing in the background and maybe my goal of getting to bed before 10:30 will happen. Doubt it, since I'm married to Brad Clark who doesn't think anything past midnight is an okay time to go to bed. PS can you believe its already FEB!! Time is flying. And it snowed today. Loved it.

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry I don't feel like blogging. I'm sorry. So much has happened. Brad's dad was in the hospital and I felt like a train wreck that week. Then our car got stolen that same week. New train wreck. 

But things are going better. The car was recovered, we had to go to court to waive the towing fees, still had to pay 50 dollars. Glad to have it back, they stole our GPS, which was in the glove box, so they didn't steal the car for that I'm guessing?

Brad and I are on a Wallyball team, and usually we have 3 people against four, but we have played just me and Brad and we are UNDEFEATED!!! Who knew? Wallyball. School is going well, today was 100 day, and I was glad to have survived. I only called Brad once in desperation, then I remember he had a test. I just needed someone who could help me without me telling them what to do. I need an aid basically.

Now Brad has a basketball game and I need to shower before it. Probably not going to happen. I can't believe its Feb. I am so busy. You probably have an idea, but if you haven't been a K teacher, then you have NO idea. I always feel frazzled. Things are never slow...Things are never relaxed... and I come home to a messy basement apartment and I live with 2 people who are just as busy as me, and we always play...who is going to clean next??? Which is a horrible way to live. I come home around 5, 5:30 and try not to just fall asleep. Or I have Wallyball, basketball, or some game to go to. It's so easy to eat out. I could eat out every day. Just a quick salad somewhere, home food is better but then you have to clean up. Blah. These pics are from Christmas. The brown hair is going to be gone this Saturday, thank you! I'm sick of it.

These were taken on Christmas day.

My dad tried to hold Jemma my niece, she's not usually like this, she just freaked out.

I'm not sure if you have seen a Hansen Christmas, but this one was beyond anything I have ever seen because we had more nieces and nephews then the previous 2 year before I had been there.

Everybody has presents under their tree, and their santa red bag with their name on it is also full.

Brad and I got 3 headlamps, somehow Santa miscommunicated with the elves and forgot to tell them he already gave us our headlamps.

The spouses don't have bags, so their gifts get mingled in, well sometimes I would pull something out that I thought was for me, but really it was for Brad, it was awkward at times.

The garbage on the floor was insane, and the commotion was insane. At least I got to open my presents before church.

We had the Skinner family for Christmas and we got them these cute aprons among other things.

Of course we had to have a shoot out in the back yard.

I hit a few.

Brad tried to let us hit the clay birds but after about 4 shots of girls he would finally shoot and hit it.

Oh and Brad's valentine present is IN THE MAIL!! After about 40 hours of work, finally!!! He read my texts and found out that it is a book that I made him online. But after being SO mad at him, I realized it wasn't worth it and just took his apologies and "I'll do anything for you," for awhile then I finally forgave him :)

My last and final question, how many otter pops have you eaten in a day?

Me....probably in the 40s.

Is that nearly obesity? Maybe that's why  my most recent picture was over a month ago.

Jk, the otter pops have not made me obese, yet.